Wapendwa Muziki’s Mesh has revealed that his family’s history of infertility once made him believe he was sterile.

Speaking during an interview with YouTuber Trudy Kitui on Thursday, November 6, 2025, Mesh said the fear took root long before he even got married, after learning that infertility had quietly haunted several members of his extended family for years.

“I once believed that I was barren because infertility runs in our family. It is like a history that has been there for years, and for a moment, I truly thought I was the one chosen to carry that burden,” he said.

Mesh revealed that he grew up hearing murmurs that some of his relatives had struggled to have children, though it was never openly discussed in the family.

He said that at the time, he never paid much attention to it until he got married to Nina and they began facing their own challenges in conceiving.

“Nina did not even know that infertility existed in my lineage; she only came to learn about it much later. It is not something you can easily talk about or even admit openly. From the first day, I always prayed and told God, ‘Please, not me next in this infertility thing,’” he added.

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According to Mesh, his partner had initially been on a family planning coil, which they later discovered was unsuitable for her.

He said they decided to remove it, believing that everything would return to normal, but conception did not happen immediately. 

The delay, he said, became the beginning of an emotional storm that tested both his faith and confidence as a man.

“What actually happened is that Nina had been using a family planning coil, which we later realised was not good for her. I came to understand later that family planning is meant for people who already have children. So, in our case, using it was a bad move because after removing it, we did not conceive immediately, and that is when panic began,” Mesh said.

Mesh said he began to panic after several months passed without results.

He revealed that the waiting stretched into a full year, during which friends and people around them started making subtle remarks about their situation.

He said some even insinuated that the problem could be him, not Nina, something that hit him deeply and pushed him into self-doubt.

“I know there are people who wonder how long we stayed without having a child. Anyone who has ever tried to conceive knows that even waiting for one month can feel like forever. For us, we waited for a full year, and nothing was happening. I panicked,” he added.

He said that was the point he started remembering the stories about infertility running in his family.

Mesh added that he convinced himself that he might have been the one chosen to carry that struggle within the family.

“People started making comments and suggesting that maybe the problem was not Nina, but me. That really got to me, and it made me start remembering the stories of infertility in my family. That was when I began to believe that maybe I was the problem,” Mesh shared.